Dear body,
There is so much that needs to be said. I don’t even know where to begin.
I’m sorry.
Let’s start there.
I haven’t been fair or kind to you recently. I’ve been struggling and blaming it on you. It’s not your fault. This mind, body, soul, heart work is hard, ya know? Some days, we feel like we’re on top of the world. Other days we feel like we’re being crushed by it. These days, its been the latter.
I blamed you for my lack of happiness. You changed and I judged you. I disliked you. I hated you. You make me feel insignificant and inadequate. You were the reason for my constant comparison of myself to others. I saw the differences. And not in a positive light.
But then you did something absolutely incredible. Something strong, courageous, and inspiring. You carried me 13.1 miles. Again. AGAIN. For the 6th time, you carried me as I ran yet another half marathon. And you did that even after I have been treating you poorly. How is it I keep forgetting what you are capable of? Why do I need these reminders of your amazingness?
So today, I ask for your forgiveness. And I make the promise that this mind, body, soul, and heart work will continue. I don’t promise to get it perfect all the time. I am sure that I will not. But I hope that these words will serve as a reminder to me that you do incredible things and I do not give you nearly enough credit for all you do for me. When I stumble (I know I will) and when I fall (I know I will), I do promise to get back up again even if it takes some time.
Because you are worth it.
We are worth it.
I hope you can forgive me.
Sincerely,
Me